you always belief that a dependent relationship is not a good thing
you always belief that the only one who can save yourself is, yourself
you always belief that you should not define people as your home
you always belief that you should not intervene with others' lives as you don't want to be controlled by anyone else's

yet
at some point
you feel safe when you share some story about your rough days with someone
you break down your own walls, such a brave thing to do
you learn to build trust, learn to fight your own doubt and insecurities
you feel loved even you grew up believing that you're not worth any
and those days - you are free of demons, 
you had found your emergency call
you stay

and suddenly,
you are left
you are being replaced
you are not significant, you don't matter
you meant nothing
and you will never be good enough

and that is why you should not trust, 
my dear self.