it is always a matter of time, isn't it?

violet hill by coldplay; if you love me, won't you let me know?

but when i looked on those lyrics and to myself,

have i let someone know that i love them?

so now i am in this very rare stage when i just... need somebody to love? hahaha. 

bound 2 - kanye; i know you're tired, of loving, of loving, with nobody to love.. nobody.. nobody

is it normal that i found it really lovely to have that kind of conversation? 

i hope that you're feeling the same as i am, when i'm not even sure with what i feel actually.. 
but to realize that i am comfortable to talk that much with a certain guy, which is kind of weird 
(because the last time i felt nearly that comfortable with a guy was around June 2015 but it didn't really work out)

so i don't know how to put up my feelings in words but i'd like to stay as a friend with you :-)

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recently, my love for poetic words are back. so here are my favourite ones..

"the beauty of not knowing how you feel is that one day you'll realize that not knowing was the only way you'd find all the feelings that were mean to stay." -r.m drake

"and in the end,

I belonged to myself,

and I was finally able

to change -- for me"

-r.m drake

but sometimes you just need to disconnect and enjoy your own company?
but i've grown accustomed to being alone? (source: some pics on instagram)


to my future-self, where i believe someday will meet the mate of our soul.

call your soul the sweetest?
gave you the mixtape that you always dreamed of?
bloom your days by those flowers that he sent?
write the most wonderful piece of poems?
make you laugh even in your darkest hours?

are you ready to be there, whenever he needs you?
are you ready to be there, knowing that he's not that good enough for you?
are you ready to be there, when you know the first thing he wants in the morning is your cheer?
can you be that woman? who is strong and powerful enough to accompany your man?

are you sure that the words he spoken is not just an everyday bullshits?

so
lets just trust each other
i trust you to love me, unconditionally
and you to trust me, to do the same thing
a simple thing called love